Bro Hymn is a song written by Pennywise's late bassist Jason Thirsk in honor of 3 friends killed in a car accident. The song basically gives a message that brotherhood, and how true friends are always there for one another in times of need. How does this apply to a blog post though is what you want to know. Well last night was an interesting night. Usually I would tell all that happens and in the past week, but up till about 10 pm last night, nothing else matters. Bro Hymn really spoke to me now that I have experienced what I did.
I'm not going to go into alot of detail here. All that I'm going to say is there were 5 of us at the park last night and some stuff happened and we just talked pretty seriously. It may not seem like we would have been able to or that it actually was serious talk, but it really got to me. I thought the whole drive home and I continued to do so for the next 3 hours while playing MX Unleashed.
45 minutes of my talking and I went home and felt like I did after 2 days of a deep retreat last year for school. A lot of encouraging things were said, but then there were things that I was told to keep going with, which seems like I'm dragging it on anyways. Here's the deal with the last part of that sentence real quick. The chick I've talked about before that I was feeling like I could get together with, that isn't going how I planned it. Basically, the interest has just dropped big time. I'm pretty much giving up on it. I'm outta gas here, and the urging to keep going is just me getting every last drop out of it, something I don't really want. I'd been thinking about it, but my friends last night persuaded me to tell her what the deal was. I told her that I like her but I wasn't sure if she likes me. I texted that to her and never got anything back. I can totally see already that it's time to stop just from not getting the reply back. A simple I don't like you would have been good, but I didn't even get that. It seems like this happens a lot to me. I give, give, and give, but I never receive anything in return. This is how I felt in my last relationship and this might be how the chick felt 2 years ago when I didn't get the clues. Fuck it. I'm done with it.
On the other hand, some encouraging things were said that really made me feel better. One of my buddies apoligized for giving me so much shit all the time. This is a perfect time to get this part out now. I really do let things bounce off me. I've got a tough front there, but somethings do get through and I just think about them, just like I was thinking last night. I kind of let them get to me and it hurts a bit. Not a lot, but it's like I can still feel it there. The apology really did get that stuff out of my mind.
Now you still might be wondering where Bro Hymn comes into play. There might be a bit of a hint in there somewhere, but here's the real meaning of it to me. All of us that were there last night bonded a bit. After all that was said and the seriousness of the situation, I really feel like these guys are brothers to me. Sure we've argued, we've given each other a ton of shit at times, but the truth is we all care about each other a ton. It's exactly as the song preaches. We'll always be there for each other, and nothing can stop us from being brothers. It might sound cheesy, but you know what, I sat there for 3 hours last night just thinking about this. When it hit me that the song was just like what had happened last night, it was like everything made sense. It totally goes right with what was said, whether it was meant or not.
Through all of the events that happened in that short 45 minutes, I feel rejuvenated. Everything that happened made for the most part made me feel a lot better and I can see the difference myself. I am definitely in a good mood today, even though there is going to be some more deep shit today from the looks of it. I feel that it will be a good thing, once again, though. Some more is going to be said most likely and all it can do it make the bond we have stronger.
The end of the first verse in Bro Hymn speaks out to me the most, and it always has since I had first heard it. "Brotherhood's our rule we cannot bend''. After last night, I couldn't say it much better myself.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Monday, October 12, 2009
What a fun weekend
Whats up everyone? I'm in a really good mood right now. ive got some fun stories since the other night, so lets start eh?
after Friday nights activities (mainly the dance party thing) we decided to have another one last night, so we had a rave, but we'll get to that later. saturday night not much happened. nick was out of town and jovany couldnt do anything, and me and matt couldnt get a hold of chris (probly cause i called only once) and so me and matt just went to the movies. we saw Zombieland, which might've been the best movie ive seen all year. it was so funny when it needed to be.
yesterday, though, was the best part. like i said, we had a rave. it wasnt out in the middle of a field (kinda) like normal ones would be though. we actually held it in the darkest part of longacre, which was just a grass clearing in the middle of the park. we bought glow sticks, face paint, and for some reason, which i dont understand still, matt and jovany got pacifiers. so with all of our stuff ready, we headed off to the park and started getting ready. we got our glowsticks on and then turned our raving on. we went for a full 2 hours atleast, and every second was a blast. i ended up shirtless for most of the night even though it was like 45 degrees out, and i actually drove home with no shirt on and glowsticks on my wrist and ankle. that was the most fun ive had in awhile.
today, me and my brother went to citizens park to scout out a bmx park id heard about. turns out it was 3 things: a 7' drop in, a fun box with a quarter pipe on one side and a lander on the other that was abotu 9' long, and a smaller drop in that was probly more for ending the run on, and there was a big concrete area for just flatland stuff. we just kinda looked around and it didnt look that bad. i figured i could do about everything. heres the thing though: standing on a drop in and being on a bike looking at it are two very different things. we didnt hit the big one at all, so that eliminated that. then there was the funbox, which we hit from both directions after gaining some confidence. i actually tried the last drop in, but just slid off and hit myself in the nose with the bars. overall, that was fun. i didnt do as much as i thought i would, but that was fine considering thats the first time ive ever hit up a legit park before.
so this may not seem like much, but this was honestly one of the more fun weekends ive had recently. tomorrow its back to school, but it wont be too bad like usual. i have no idea what were doing in any class, but thats fine. so until next weekend, later.
after Friday nights activities (mainly the dance party thing) we decided to have another one last night, so we had a rave, but we'll get to that later. saturday night not much happened. nick was out of town and jovany couldnt do anything, and me and matt couldnt get a hold of chris (probly cause i called only once) and so me and matt just went to the movies. we saw Zombieland, which might've been the best movie ive seen all year. it was so funny when it needed to be.
yesterday, though, was the best part. like i said, we had a rave. it wasnt out in the middle of a field (kinda) like normal ones would be though. we actually held it in the darkest part of longacre, which was just a grass clearing in the middle of the park. we bought glow sticks, face paint, and for some reason, which i dont understand still, matt and jovany got pacifiers. so with all of our stuff ready, we headed off to the park and started getting ready. we got our glowsticks on and then turned our raving on. we went for a full 2 hours atleast, and every second was a blast. i ended up shirtless for most of the night even though it was like 45 degrees out, and i actually drove home with no shirt on and glowsticks on my wrist and ankle. that was the most fun ive had in awhile.
today, me and my brother went to citizens park to scout out a bmx park id heard about. turns out it was 3 things: a 7' drop in, a fun box with a quarter pipe on one side and a lander on the other that was abotu 9' long, and a smaller drop in that was probly more for ending the run on, and there was a big concrete area for just flatland stuff. we just kinda looked around and it didnt look that bad. i figured i could do about everything. heres the thing though: standing on a drop in and being on a bike looking at it are two very different things. we didnt hit the big one at all, so that eliminated that. then there was the funbox, which we hit from both directions after gaining some confidence. i actually tried the last drop in, but just slid off and hit myself in the nose with the bars. overall, that was fun. i didnt do as much as i thought i would, but that was fine considering thats the first time ive ever hit up a legit park before.
so this may not seem like much, but this was honestly one of the more fun weekends ive had recently. tomorrow its back to school, but it wont be too bad like usual. i have no idea what were doing in any class, but thats fine. so until next weekend, later.
Saturday, October 10, 2009
The Downfall of Us All
It's been a few days since i was on here, and after last night i feel that i have enough to write about from the past week. so lets go.
i dont remember much of last weekend other than saturday. that night i froze at the POWRi race at Belle-Claire. i had nothing else to do and it was the last race of the season, so i figured why not, lets go and have some fun. turns out it was a lot of fun. great racing like always, but there were like 5 or 6 flips. alot more than usual, but everyone was fine. in fact, during one of the heats, a mini sprint flipped, they got the guy rolled over and he came back to finish i think 3rd in the heat with only a bit of damage to his wing. it was cool to watch. after the racing was done, i hung out in the pits for awhile and then went home. i was cold and just ready to get home. they did finish the races unusually quickly though so there wasnt a rush to get back home.
the other thing that happened that was significant to me was a show i watched on FUEL TV. there was this show called Props, which followed bmx teams going on trips and just following them around as they free rode in different countries and sometimes just the US. i saw some pretty sweet stuff and i got an urge to hit some jumps or make a dirt hit. that was a really cool show though.
now lets go through the school week. i think it was tuesday i got a 100% on a math test, something that probably hasnt happened since grade school. i was really happy it happened too. i take trig, and earlier in the year, there was some stuff that was giving me trouble and my grade was an F. the quarter ends this coming week and i am in striking distance of a B. im so happy about that. thats pretty much all that happened at school that i can think of.
yesterday. heres where it gets fun. the past couple days and into yesterday afternoon, its been raining. i like to sometimes do powerslides in the rain cause the roads/parking lots are wet and its easy to do in my 2001 bone stock ford escort. me and one of my buddies met up at the park and i came in and did an awesome one. so that was all for then. we chilled there a bit then went to his house, then went to go pick up a friend from the movies. turns out though, i was picking up 3 friends at the movies, and me and my buddy who i was with were like what the fuck is this? so i just drove us around until they wanted to go back to their cars at the movie theatre. half of the lot was empty, so i figured id try to do a huge slide like the one at the park. so i look to the left, which is where the slide is heading, and i tried to find the ebrake behind the movies i had just bought that were sitting right there. its almost like fates way of saying, don't do. do i listen? of course not. i pull it and it only kicks out a bit. then i turn to the right to see a cop driving down the aisle of cars next to me. sure enough he pulls me over and all my friends are like "you seriously didnt see that?" i said "no im looking to make sure i dont hit nothing."
so this is the first time its ever happened to me. i am shaking like a leaf. if i get a ticket, im done. my dad will rip my liscense up with his bare hands. so i turn off the music i had blaring after my buddy yells at me to because i cant think straight, and the cop comes up to the window. asking if i always drive like that. "Uhh...." (Me) "sometimes?" (cop) "Yeah sometimes....rarely" then he asks what the letters FSU stand for on my back window.
lets flash back real quick like. 2nd week of high school football, and our school plays our biggest rivals from literally right down the street, Belleville West. the night before, we had a big bonfire where we got pumped up for the game and we threw some West stuff in the fire. some chicks were writing on everyones cars Beat West, or Go Althoff, and FSU. i asked one girl what it stood for. "Fuck Shit Up." apparently its the teams motto this year. theyve had a couple sucky seasons and weve lost our reputation of one of the best teams in the area. this is our comeback year.
so fast forward back to last night. the cop asks and lets do some dialogue again. "What's FSU stand for? Is it some straight edge stuff" (we got a laugh outta that one later seeing that i was dropping people off before going to meet up with my staight edge friend) (once again) "Uhhhhh...I'm not sure if i should say. I didn't write it on there though, its a school thing. Its the football teams motto" "You can say it I won't blush" "Ummmm....(insert nervous chuckles here) Freak Stuff Up." i wasnt gonna cuss in front of a cop although its not a big deal for him. "So Fuck Stuff up." "Yeah yeah."
So after that he got my liscence and insurance, and i was surprised i was able to get it out i was shaking so much, and everyone else said they saw me shaking too. so he comes back, hands me my shit and says like "drive slower" and walks off. im askin my friends "is that it?" one of em said wait till he turns off his lights and then you can go. so i did so, restarted the car, and they got out.
so we laughed about that a bit the rest of the night. after this incident, we proceeded to the park to meet up with our friend and his girl. we just chilled in his van for a bit listening to music then took it outside in the parking lot cause obviously no one was there due to the cold and wet conditions. we pretty much had a dance party out there, with mosh pits, head banging, the usual kind of stuff. it was a blast though. came home after that and barely squeezed out a win against FSU (ironically) in the Orange Bowl in NCAA Football 09. after that i watched Ghost Adventures and went to bed.
that was pretty much the most exciting parts of my past week. hope you got some laughs. later party ppl
i dont remember much of last weekend other than saturday. that night i froze at the POWRi race at Belle-Claire. i had nothing else to do and it was the last race of the season, so i figured why not, lets go and have some fun. turns out it was a lot of fun. great racing like always, but there were like 5 or 6 flips. alot more than usual, but everyone was fine. in fact, during one of the heats, a mini sprint flipped, they got the guy rolled over and he came back to finish i think 3rd in the heat with only a bit of damage to his wing. it was cool to watch. after the racing was done, i hung out in the pits for awhile and then went home. i was cold and just ready to get home. they did finish the races unusually quickly though so there wasnt a rush to get back home.
the other thing that happened that was significant to me was a show i watched on FUEL TV. there was this show called Props, which followed bmx teams going on trips and just following them around as they free rode in different countries and sometimes just the US. i saw some pretty sweet stuff and i got an urge to hit some jumps or make a dirt hit. that was a really cool show though.
now lets go through the school week. i think it was tuesday i got a 100% on a math test, something that probably hasnt happened since grade school. i was really happy it happened too. i take trig, and earlier in the year, there was some stuff that was giving me trouble and my grade was an F. the quarter ends this coming week and i am in striking distance of a B. im so happy about that. thats pretty much all that happened at school that i can think of.
yesterday. heres where it gets fun. the past couple days and into yesterday afternoon, its been raining. i like to sometimes do powerslides in the rain cause the roads/parking lots are wet and its easy to do in my 2001 bone stock ford escort. me and one of my buddies met up at the park and i came in and did an awesome one. so that was all for then. we chilled there a bit then went to his house, then went to go pick up a friend from the movies. turns out though, i was picking up 3 friends at the movies, and me and my buddy who i was with were like what the fuck is this? so i just drove us around until they wanted to go back to their cars at the movie theatre. half of the lot was empty, so i figured id try to do a huge slide like the one at the park. so i look to the left, which is where the slide is heading, and i tried to find the ebrake behind the movies i had just bought that were sitting right there. its almost like fates way of saying, don't do. do i listen? of course not. i pull it and it only kicks out a bit. then i turn to the right to see a cop driving down the aisle of cars next to me. sure enough he pulls me over and all my friends are like "you seriously didnt see that?" i said "no im looking to make sure i dont hit nothing."
so this is the first time its ever happened to me. i am shaking like a leaf. if i get a ticket, im done. my dad will rip my liscense up with his bare hands. so i turn off the music i had blaring after my buddy yells at me to because i cant think straight, and the cop comes up to the window. asking if i always drive like that. "Uhh...." (Me) "sometimes?" (cop) "Yeah sometimes....rarely" then he asks what the letters FSU stand for on my back window.
lets flash back real quick like. 2nd week of high school football, and our school plays our biggest rivals from literally right down the street, Belleville West. the night before, we had a big bonfire where we got pumped up for the game and we threw some West stuff in the fire. some chicks were writing on everyones cars Beat West, or Go Althoff, and FSU. i asked one girl what it stood for. "Fuck Shit Up." apparently its the teams motto this year. theyve had a couple sucky seasons and weve lost our reputation of one of the best teams in the area. this is our comeback year.
so fast forward back to last night. the cop asks and lets do some dialogue again. "What's FSU stand for? Is it some straight edge stuff" (we got a laugh outta that one later seeing that i was dropping people off before going to meet up with my staight edge friend) (once again) "Uhhhhh...I'm not sure if i should say. I didn't write it on there though, its a school thing. Its the football teams motto" "You can say it I won't blush" "Ummmm....(insert nervous chuckles here) Freak Stuff Up." i wasnt gonna cuss in front of a cop although its not a big deal for him. "So Fuck Stuff up." "Yeah yeah."
So after that he got my liscence and insurance, and i was surprised i was able to get it out i was shaking so much, and everyone else said they saw me shaking too. so he comes back, hands me my shit and says like "drive slower" and walks off. im askin my friends "is that it?" one of em said wait till he turns off his lights and then you can go. so i did so, restarted the car, and they got out.
so we laughed about that a bit the rest of the night. after this incident, we proceeded to the park to meet up with our friend and his girl. we just chilled in his van for a bit listening to music then took it outside in the parking lot cause obviously no one was there due to the cold and wet conditions. we pretty much had a dance party out there, with mosh pits, head banging, the usual kind of stuff. it was a blast though. came home after that and barely squeezed out a win against FSU (ironically) in the Orange Bowl in NCAA Football 09. after that i watched Ghost Adventures and went to bed.
that was pretty much the most exciting parts of my past week. hope you got some laughs. later party ppl
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