Bro Hymn (45 minutes)

Bro Hymn is a song written by Pennywise's late bassist Jason Thirsk in honor of 3 friends killed in a car accident. The song basically gives a message that brotherhood, and how true friends are always there for one another in times of need. How does this apply to a blog post though is what you want to know. Well last night was an interesting night. Usually I would tell all that happens and in the past week, but up till about 10 pm last night, nothing else matters. Bro Hymn really spoke to me now that I have experienced what I did.

I'm not going to go into alot of detail here. All that I'm going to say is there were 5 of us at the park last night and some stuff happened and we just talked pretty seriously. It may not seem like we would have been able to or that it actually was serious talk, but it really got to me. I thought the whole drive home and I continued to do so for the next 3 hours while playing MX Unleashed.

45 minutes of my talking and I went home and felt like I did after 2 days of a deep retreat last year for school. A lot of encouraging things were said, but then there were things that I was told to keep going with, which seems like I'm dragging it on anyways. Here's the deal with the last part of that sentence real quick. The chick I've talked about before that I was feeling like I could get together with, that isn't going how I planned it. Basically, the interest has just dropped big time. I'm pretty much giving up on it. I'm outta gas here, and the urging to keep going is just me getting every last drop out of it, something I don't really want. I'd been thinking about it, but my friends last night persuaded me to tell her what the deal was. I told her that I like her but I wasn't sure if she likes me. I texted that to her and never got anything back. I can totally see already that it's time to stop just from not getting the reply back. A simple I don't like you would have been good, but I didn't even get that. It seems like this happens a lot to me. I give, give, and give, but I never receive anything in return. This is how I felt in my last relationship and this might be how the chick felt 2 years ago when I didn't get the clues. Fuck it. I'm done with it.

On the other hand, some encouraging things were said that really made me feel better. One of my buddies apoligized for giving me so much shit all the time. This is a perfect time to get this part out now. I really do let things bounce off me. I've got a tough front there, but somethings do get through and I just think about them, just like I was thinking last night. I kind of let them get to me and it hurts a bit. Not a lot, but it's like I can still feel it there. The apology really did get that stuff out of my mind.

Now you still might be wondering where Bro Hymn comes into play. There might be a bit of a hint in there somewhere, but here's the real meaning of it to me. All of us that were there last night bonded a bit. After all that was said and the seriousness of the situation, I really feel like these guys are brothers to me. Sure we've argued, we've given each other a ton of shit at times, but the truth is we all care about each other a ton. It's exactly as the song preaches. We'll always be there for each other, and nothing can stop us from being brothers. It might sound cheesy, but you know what, I sat there for 3 hours last night just thinking about this. When it hit me that the song was just like what had happened last night, it was like everything made sense. It totally goes right with what was said, whether it was meant or not.

Through all of the events that happened in that short 45 minutes, I feel rejuvenated. Everything that happened made for the most part made me feel a lot better and I can see the difference myself. I am definitely in a good mood today, even though there is going to be some more deep shit today from the looks of it. I feel that it will be a good thing, once again, though. Some more is going to be said most likely and all it can do it make the bond we have stronger.

The end of the first verse in Bro Hymn speaks out to me the most, and it always has since I had first heard it. "Brotherhood's our rule we cannot bend''. After last night, I couldn't say it much better myself.