oh, what a nice day

Hey everyone, whats up? last nite was pretty sweet, and it made my weekend im thinkin, even though it was just friday. the game was really great, and we ended up winning 44-0, 3 points better than last year. west next week, so that should also be fun. after the game me and nick went up to the park and chilled with clarissa for a bit. some crazy shit was going on with ppl while me and nick were at the game, so honestly, im kinda glad i wasnt part of it.

so thats all i have to say about yesterday, but i feel like typing more. so i guess ill get my relationship stories out there.

the first relationship(s) i was in was with a chick that i have been friends with since like 2nd or 3rd grade, so she was in 3rd or 4th grade. weve always been pretty close, and in like 6th grade i asked her out, but we didnt. probably a good choice because i was too young for that shit anyways. we did end up starting to go out in i think my 8th grade year. ive always been real shy about relationship-y things (the main reason why ive only had 2 girlfriends), so not much realy happend. we hung out alot, but i dint have the balls to kiss her or anything like that. we kinda went on and off for 2 years until she started going out with a dude that was a couple years older than me. she didnt really cheat on me, just for the record, its just wen we were goin out she called one nite and was like, he asked me out and i like him, so i think im gonna go out with him for a bit, it probly wont last long like the last time. this was the second time in a couple months she had done this. the first time it lasted like a week, but wen she first told me the first time i was so upset. the second time was a whole nother story. i was in a really good mood the night she told me, so it just kinda rolled past wen she told me, and it actually surprised her i think.

so fast forward a few weeks or so, and im pissed as hell. all i can think about is how much i hate this dude. thats all i thought about for months. fast forward again a year later, in the summer. they were still going out and i was startin to get over it. (i know, a year to get over it, but it really hurt deep down). one of her friends on myspace that i dint know started talkin to me one day and we were gettin along well. long story short, we met two days later, and we decided to go out. this is the beginning of the worst decision of my life.

me and this girl, nikki, (im gonna name her cause i dont give a shit, the other chick im a lil hesitant about naming, although the ppl who read this are either gonna know wats happened or theyre not, no inbetween) started going out, like i said. she was pretty cool, but obnoxious at times, but it was alrite. i was just happy to finaly be back in a relationship. i met her family and they were pretty cool, and it turns out her dad was a nascar fan, which was really cool too. i feel that me and her really liked each other, but there was some tension between us from about the halfway point in the relationship. i was startin to figure out that really, we were two different personalities, and it wasnt working out at all. the first thing that really got to me was when id call her. we would talk almost everynight, and there was one point where she wasnt answering at all. she said that it was too late wen id call (which was like 9pm) and shed be asleep by the time id call. i was realy pissed that im tryin to keep the relationship going and that she didnt really show the same to me. it was one of those deals where i was putting way more effort into it than she cared to. another thing that didnt work was that she drank. it wasnt like she was a heavy drinker, but every now and then. i didnt like that at all. (ive never really considered myself to be straight edge, but ive been thinking about it, and i guess i am. not that i dont want to be considered that, but ive never thought about it much before.) so obviously, this was a problem. one more thing that set us apart, and ended up puttin the nail in the coffin, was her sense of humor, or really the lack of it. i find myself to be a fairly funny guy. im laughed at more than im laughed with just because i try to be funny and its not really funny, but hey, ill take it. she was one of those ppl who took jokes too seriously sometimes. i said something (jokingly) about how we should just break up. i dont remember exactly wat led me to say that, but she was pissed off at me as it was that night for previous happenings. we were at a picnic that night, and i had waited for her for an hour and a half to get there, and she and her friend were making up some bullshit excuses, so i wasnt in the mood to play around much either. i ended up leavin the picnic without really saying bye, and tht was the last time i talked to who i now refer to as Crazy Ass Nikki face to face. we had a fight over the phone later on that night, and then another one on myspace that lasted a week, and i was done at that point.

more to come later